Genetic Array!

The genetic array came back early!

Initial results state that it's.. clean! No genetic issues found. So, what does this mean for us? It means that Henry's holoprosencephaly could be a fluke. Just something that happens.

It means that, if the single-gene checks come back clean as well, that we may be able to try again. When we're ready. Amelia may still get the chance to be a big sister.

It seems horrible to think about another child, now, but.. it's a relief. If Henry's testing comes back genetically clear, then we won't have to worry about Amelia when she gets older -- could she be a carrier? Will my daughter experience this situation?

I met with a neonatal hospice coordinator yesterday. Such a wonderful person. I try to remain clinical, but breakdowns happen.

We're not going to have enough time with him. Not nearly enough, but every second will be cherished.